Well, another Christmas has come and gone. To be honest, I'm feeling a bit... deflated. I don't want to sound like a "bah humbug", because Christmas really is my favorite holiday. It's just that, for the last several years, it has felt different. I think part of my problem is that I keep expecting Christmas to be what I remember it being as a child. I still get that excited feeling as the holiday season starts, but that excited feeling is because I'm waiting for an experience that I really can't get anymore. You know, the way it used to be when I was a kid. My mother always made the Christmas season so amazing. But, it's true what they say, you can't go home again. I think I keep getting let down by the holiday because I hold it up to those memories. I mean, let's face it; if you aren't a kid or you don't have kids, Christmas just isn't what it was. And maybe that's what's wrong. I keep wanting it to be what it was, when everything else about my life has changed. I need to find a way to stop being disappointed by what Christmas isn't and start enjoying Christmas for what it is to me now. I need to find out a way for Christmas to take on a new meaning for me; with new traditions, and new memories. I know Christmas is about giving and being around family. It's not like I don't appreciate those things. I love getting to see my family, and I love giving gifts. It's the feeling that seems missing. I just need to accept that I'm not going to come home one day and see my mom making cookies while listening to Christmas music. I need to be the one making cookies while listening to Christmas music. Because I really do love the holidays. I just need to stop trying to relive the past and start enjoying the now. That may be a very good resolution for the New Year. Enjoying what I've got now, instead of waiting until it's gone to miss it, too.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
I got my final grades and, thank heaven, I passed all my classes. Two A-s and a C+. So, ya, I'm pretty happy with it all. Also, I played around with some green eye shadow today. I'm really starting to dig the colored eye shadow thing.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
I was totally inspired today when I found this blog. I only looked over it for a few minutes, so I'm not sure what this girl does for a living. But she does some of the most amazing makeup. She's very adventurous with her eye makeup in particular, and it made me want to be adventurous, too. And what an easy thing to do, even with as little expendable income as I have. Though not near as daring as anything she's done (seriously, check it out, it's amazing) I tried something a little new today. Purple is the only interesting color I have right now, so I tried that with some liquid eyeliner that I've been afraid to play with. Nothing too crazy, but fun nonetheless. I liked it and I think I'll keep playing around in the future. Now I just need to hit the drugstore! Or ELF!!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
I was having a little fun on instyle.com yesterday. You can upload a picture of yourself and try on different stars' hairstyles. And it's completely free. Hours of fun. So, here's a few looks I was playing around with. What do you think?
(p.s. sorry about the smile, I hate my smile.)
Monday, December 8, 2008
Since I started taking classes at the University's main campus this semester, I begrudgingly bought a backpack. I put it off until a week before school started, because I just hate backpacks! I felt like a dorky freshman allover again (no offense, freshmen), walking around campus with that awful thing on my shoulders. And on top of that, it's very hard to dress in anything but jeans and sweaters when you're wearing a backpack. They just don't lend themselves to trendier outfits. I thought I was doomed. Turns out, I was just a little slow to catch up. A big trend this year has been these large handbags. I just bought the gray one from Wetseal and now I feel like all my troubles are over. I just love it. It's low key enough to wear with a sweater and jeans, but if I feel like dressing up a bit, it goes well with that, too. I made sure and bought gray because that way I can wear it with any color. Gray is the new black of fall/winter I think. The only downfall is that my semester just ended, so I'll have to wait four weeks to truly try this baby out. But I am still so pleased with this bag. It's rare to find something that fit an idea so perfectly.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
"The average girl would rather have beauty than brains because she knows the average man can see much better than he can think" Unknown
I found this website a while ago and got very excited about it. I was a little nervous when I first ordered some makeup from them because I was afraid the price reflected the quality. I was very pleased when the makeup turned out to be good quality. I haven't had a problem with anything from e.l.f. yet. So I thought I'd share the site and a few things I plan to get in the near future. Enjoy.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Actually, I have five. I was at Michael's craft store a few days ago and found these adorable little bird ornaments.
I don't know why I fell in love with them, but I immediately did. They are just so whimsical. A bit retro, but modern; metallic but still elegant. I had to have them. I bought five and immediately when home to set up my Christmas tree. I even think I'll go back for more.
I just filled up my tank for $16!!! Can you believe that?! Sixteen bucks and some change! I felt a little like an idiot as I'm standing there pumping gas with this stupid grin on my face. But I was just so elated.
Maybe I won't have to get a job to afford clothes. With my gas budget cut in half, I think I need to go shopping...
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
"Beauty, to me, is about being comfortable in your own skin. That, or kick-ass red lipstick." Gwyneth Paltrow
I've always been fascinated by red lips. I love the way it looks. So glamorous and timeless. But I've been to afraid to try it until now. I found a shade that I think works for my skin tone. Now I feel like I'm wearing way too much make-up. And all I have on is the lipstick and mascara. So, I ask you. Can I pull off red lipstick?
Monday, December 1, 2008
Happy December everyone! I can hardly believe that November is over. It seemed really fast this year. It really doesn't feel like December in Utah at all. The temperature is in the 50s and there's hardly any snow on the mountains, let alone on the ground where I am. It's pretty crazy. I was looking through my closet last night and realized, I have almost no winter clothes! How did that happen? Someone must be stealing my clothes!!!
Oh, wait! I remember. I thought I was being smart when I cleaned out my closet last spring. You know, instead of keeping all the "clutter." Ya, big mistake. I vow never to throw away clothes that haven't fallen apart again. Now I need to replenish my wardrobe; which will be no easy task considering I have no job and therefore no money. And there's just so much cute stuff I want. ~sigh~
I think I need to find a job!
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
So, I tried my hand at something new and I'm very pleased with the way it turned out...
I just love the look of these necklaces. I had a lot of fun making them. They're quite versatile too, since you can wear the bow in the front or the back and adjust the length with the size of the bow. They're even cute as bracelets.
Who knows, maybe I'll start selling them. Make my millions off necklaces.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Next Tuesday is the day. And I truly hope everyone is already registered and planning to vote in the upcoming election. I found some statistics that really made me sad. According to life.familyeducation.com only 54 percent of eligible voters cast their ballots during the last four decades of presidential elections. Compare that embarrassing number to Italy's 90 percent, Germany's 80 percent, France and Canada's 76 percent, Britain's 75 percent and Japan's 71 percent. We rank 35th in voter turnout out of the world's prominent democracies. If that doesn't make you feel a little ashamed, I don't know what will. And, honestly, I'm not sure what causes the feeling of indifference towards voting. Sure, sometimes I can feel like my vote really won't matter, but more and more people are feeling that way. This is supposed to be a strong, proud country. We need to end the apathy. In my opinion, you have no right to complain about how the country, state, county or city are being run unless you participated in the democratic process. If you aren't well informed and involved with bettering your community, how can you just sit there and complain about what's going on? I'm not trying to wag my finger at anyone, I'm just trying to light a fire under a few butts. This is serious stuff. Whether you're a Democrat, Republican or anything in between, we need to care enough about our country to really do something. This country was built on the idea that every person would have a say in how things were run. We just can't forget that.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
So, after hearing that basically everyone suffers from "Agh, is that me?!?" syndrome when they see themselves in pictures, I went back to look at some of mine and I decided it was the way I'm posed that makes me look 30 pounds heavier than I feel. So, I decided I'd check the Internet for tips on how to look good in pictures. Though I'm not sure they'd all work for impromptu pictures, if you get used to them, they could become second nature.
- Always turn partially sideways with your weight on your back foot.
- To minimize appearance of a double chin, pull head slightly forward and press your tongue to the roof of your mouth.
- Watch your posture! Pull shoulders back, chest up, and there's no shame is sucking in, but only a little. You don't want it to look like you were sucking in.
- Use items you're holding to camouflage areas on your body you're self conscious about. Like holding your purse in front of your stomach.
- Hold arms just slightly away from your body to keep the upper arm from looking flabby. But don't look like you're about to fly away.
- If you're planning a photo, opt for a monochromatic look. One color from head to toe is always slimming, even if it's not black, though darks are better at this than lights.
- Invest in some Spanx. I don't think there's a woman out there that couldn't benefit from some Spanx!
- Finally, to get a fresh, natural looking smile, look away from the camera, then turn towards it and smile just before it takes the shot. This is not easy, and takes some practice to master
I'm sure it would take some practice to master these. And if you're going to practice, do it behind closed doors so you don't look like a crazy person. Really, though, pictures aren't about looking back and thinking, "Mmmm, smokin'!" They're for memories. Remembering a great experience you had. So, I guess just stop stressing and smile. It's better than not having a picture at all.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Growing up, Halloween was one of the greatest holidays. Not only was it great to dress up, but trick-or-treating was one of the most enjoyable traditions out there. Back when you'd get all dressed up and, with supervision of course, you walk around your neighborhood door-to-door, ringing doorbells and yelling trick or treat with such thrill that you barely noticed the terrible cold (Utah+October=FREEZING!!). But this tradition is fast becoming nothing more than a memory. First, it moved from door-to-door to trunk-r-treat. This may have been a Utah thing as it centered around the Mormon church. The members would get together in the parking lot and kids would go from trunk to trunk collecting candy. Though this still kept the essence of trick-or-treating, it lacked any real threat of the trick and the event went more quickly than the door-to-door method. Then our little town also tried what we called BooFest, where the local businesses on downtown would give out candy to trick-or-treaters. Sadly, both of these traditions have faded and it's simply not safe to go around trick-or-treating anymore, even in our little town. In my opinion the only solution to this is to throw a party. Whether it is simply a family party, or a neighborhood block party, it's really the only route to go anymore. Adults have been having costume parties for years now, but I'm more worried about the kids. But there are so many websites out there giving ideas for Halloween parties, the work is almost done for you. Costume contests are almost necessary, because we don't want to lose the importance of dressing up. And the food is always key, with cauldrons full bubbling over with dry ice, and a menu with spooky names. Or, for slightly older kids, create a haunted house. I loved doing this when I was younger. You could do it in a garage or use laundry line and put up partitions in the back yard. Do it just for the family, or invite the whole neighborhood over. Also, check out this article for some other great and easy alternatives to trick-or-treating, it had the best info I've found. We can't let Halloween die. Just because we can't safely send our kids out trick-or-treating doesn't mean Halloween can't be just as fantastic, if not better. Just don't forget to tell your kids what Halloween used to be like.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Thursday, October 9, 2008
We had an interesting assignment in one of my classes a little while ago to write down ten experiences or adventures we'd like to have in our lives. I really liked the assignment, so I decided to list my ten here. Some of them are very simple, while others may take me a few years. They're not in any particular order, and I'm sure this list will be changed and added to as time goes on, but it's still fun to think about. As mom always taught, life really isn't about the things you acquire, but the experiences you attain...
1. Live in New York City: This one is actually my number one, though I'm not sure when it will happen...
2. Learn French: I've always wanted to be bilingual. Honestly, I'd also like to learn Spanish and Italian as well.
3. Try sushi: Like I said, some of these won't take much effort.
4. Write a book and get it published: Don't ask me the subject, cause I don't know.
5. Run/Complete a 5K: Walking a 5K would probably kill me at this point, but it's good to be ambitious.
6. Visit Europe: Well, western Europe anyway; Spain, France, Italy, England, Ireland, etc.
7. Road trip the old Route 66: I've always thought a road trip would be fun, and Route 66 has to be the most famous.
8. Learn to paint: Watercolor is actually what I'm most interested in, though oil painting would obviously be cool, too.
9. Master yoga: Yoga is hard! Way harder than I expected.
10. Go on a safari: A real one, I really want to touch an elephant. It would just be great to see those animals in their habitat.
Some of these are a little short-sighted. But, I guess that way as I cross them off my list, I can add more to them. I'm sure I'll wake up in the middle of the night thinking "Crap! That should have made it on my list!" but oh well. This is my list as of right now. To me, these are more important that owning a new car, or buying that big new house (or loft, for someone like myself). Besides, those things seem to be getting harder and harder to acquire. But there's nothing stopping me from training for a 5K, or writing a book, for that matter. What would be on your list?
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
Ok, you know how they say people who suffer from anorexia or bulimia have a skewed body image. So that if they look in the mirror, they don't see what they really look like, they see someone who is fat. Well, I'm pretty sure I have the opposite problem. And yes, I say problem, because it's still a skewed image. When I look in the mirror some days I see someone who, while being a little overly voluptuous, really isn't too bad. Then I see myself in pictures, and it makes me wonder how off the image in my head is. Again, I'm not looking for any "oh, Becky, but you're beautiful" or "you're not fat", I'm just relaying an interesting thing I've noticed about myself. I don't want reassurance, I'm more interested to hear if this has ever happened to anyone else. And after I have seen myself in a picture or gone clothes shopping (a hell in it's own right) I go the other way and every time I look in the mirror, I see something I'm not so happy with. On those days, all I can focus on is how bloated I feel or how uncomfortable my clothes are. Is this too depressing, because I really don't mean it that way. I see it more as an phenomenon of the female psyche. And I must say, it makes getting ready in the morning a real bitch!
Monday, September 29, 2008
I have lived in Utah for 22 years now. I've been going down to Salt Lake City for entertainment for the last five. And last Saturday, the 27th, I went to the Farmers Market for the first time. It's something I've wanted to check out for a little while, and I finally got the chance. I must say, I was impressed. Held at Pioneer Park, all sorts of local vendors set up booths and offer an array of fruits, vegetables and handmade goods. Going a little later in the year, I was worried that it might not be as big as even a month or two earlier in the year. But I was so very wrong. There were great heirloom tomatoes, squash off all sorts, herbs, melons, giant peaches. They even had fresh beef, seafood and cheeses, as well as a huge selection of baked goods. Being a carb-loving girl, I was truly in paradise. But beyond food there were plenty of hand-made crafts and goods ranging from soaps to yard ornaments to jewelry. I got there right at 8:00 am when they all open and it was already getting busy. It took me about an hour and a half to walk all the way around. And if there's one bit of advice I could offer to those interested in checking it out, it's this. Don't eat breakfast first! Not only are there a number of local and unique food venders (think falafels and tapas) as well as those fresh pastries, but there are free samples almost everywhere you turn. This is definitely near the top of my list of things I love about Salt Lake City!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
I could not have picked a better day to be at the Gateway! Some of you may know that I am a huge So You Think You Can Dance fan. Huge! The SYTYCD tour was in town Monday for the Salt Lake City, and while I was walking the mall, I was lucky enough to meet four of the girls from the show. First, I "bumped" into Chelsie Hightower (18) and Comfort Fedoke (20) at the Panda Express in the food court. Then I saw Kherington Payne (18) and Chelsea Traille (23) in the Wetseal.
I felt like a fourteen-year-old, smiling and giggling. I'm pretty sure my sentences were coherent, but I can't be sure. I must have looked like a complete geek to them. They were all so sweet, though. They had no problem posing for a couple pictures, and they all seemed very genuine and real. Especially Kherington, who asked me my name and talk to me for a minute. And they are all just as gorgeous in person as they are on television. It was definitely the most exciting thing that's happened to me in a while. If you haven't seen any of the dances, you've gotta check out Kherington's Contemporary routine with Twitch and Chelsie's Hip-Hop routine with Mark. Phenomenal! For Real!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
And one giant leap for the LDS church. I have never been more proud to be a member (some may argue not a very good member, but that's neither here nor there). The LDS church made a statement supporting Gov. Jon Hunstman's push to eliminate the membership requirements in private clubs. You can read the full article in the Deseret News, but basically the church says they can agree on laws that "allow individual freedom of choice." Hmmm, that sounds a lot like free agency to me, but whatever. In a state that is, in actuality, only a bit more than half LDS (sltrib.com), I see it as a good thing for the church to support our lawmakers, even if those laws aren't directly in line with the standards of the Church. And I think it has a lot to say about the members, as well. Perhaps we don't need our collective hands held at every road we have to cross. Maybe, just maybe, being a part of the LDS religion means that we can hold standards that don't need to be echoed by those who may not believe the same things. Of course, I think we can all agree that being responsible when you drink is of the utmost importance. But if Mormons can choose not to drink, can't those who aren't Mormons choose to drink. So I say kudos to the Church, for trusting it's members, and making life in Utah a little more cohesive.
You know that friend you've had forever. The one that you may not have thought was that attractive but has always been there for you? Did you ever find yourself looking at them one day in a whole new light? Well, that's what's been happening to me. I think I'm falling in love with Salt Lake City. It kind of crept up on me. The more I visit, the more I find things and places that I never knew existed. And I'm loving it! A big turning point in our relationship happened tonight at the Fashion Stroll on Broadway between 200 East and 300 East. Some of you may know of my love (read: obsession) with fashion. And I've always been under the impression that there was no real fashion base in Utah. I believe I was wrong. The Fashion Stroll was put together by Matt Monson who owns the boutique model.citizen, which offers men and women's clothing by local designers. It happens twice a year, Fall and Spring, for local designers and boutiques to come together as part of a street festival that features live music, fashion shows, and lots of great people. It was eye opening. As I walked down Broadway surrounded by designers, antique stores, clothes and some very stylish people, I got that feeling you get when you catch a really cute guy looking at you. Exhilarated and empowered. It was unlike anything I would expect from Salt Lake City. It made Salt Lake City feel like the popular urban areas I've always dreamed of living in. It seems my dream may have just gotten a little closer.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Only fifty-some-odd to go. I lost a pound last week. I'm trying to celebrate every little victory, otherwise it's depressing. One pound may not seem like a lot, but look at these pictures...
Ewww! That is just gross. It also makes me feel pretty good having that much less fat on my body. I've also heard it equated to a bag of M&Ms. Putting it in this perspective just makes it feel like a much more significant victory. So, hopefully I can keep it up...
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
It would take 26 hours running or 20 hours spinning to lose five pounds. So, why did it only take my sister coming to visit for my diet to go so far down the toilet, I don't think it can be rescued. Why does it seem to be so much easier to gain weight than to lose weight? Yahoo!'s got an article on just this subject. It lists things like a pound is a pound, and it takes exercise and diet to lose weight, blah blah blah. I think it's simply easier to eat, drink and be merry than it is to exercise. And I was doing so well. I was losing a pound or two a week. So, I'm officially jumping back on the diet train. Going back to eating at home, eating smaller portions, and working out. I'm giving myself one year to get to my goal weight of 125 lbs. That's 50 pounds. About a pound a week. That's reasonable, I think. My goals for this week are drinking way more water than usual, and walking on the treadmill at least three times. We'll see how it goes. Wish me luck; I'll keep you posted.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
As I was up Logan canyon this weekend camping with my in-laws, I couldn't help but look over at my sweet husband and think, "You owe me!" Anyone who knows me will tell you, I'm not a camper. I'm barely a sit in the park with a picnic kind of girl. And as I sat there, in the dirt and bugs, I wondered how my husband and I got along so well. We are complete opposites in so many facets of our lives, it's almost scary to list. He listens to hard rock, I listen to alternative/contemporary. I drive a small, fuel efficient Civic, he drives a large, much less fuel efficient F-150. Everything from what we like to do in our spare time (think crocheting vs Xbox) to where we want to live is very different. Sometimes, when I think about it too much, it starts to concern me. What if, with all of these differences, we grow apart. Then I think of the saying "opposites attract". Sure, they attract, but do they stay together? I go on to try to think of why we are happy together. Is it because we are attracted to each other and don't mind doing things separately? I don't think it's that simple, because we really enjoy spending time together. Being the type to over analyze, (thanks for the collective gasp), I've really put some time and thought into this subject. Do opposites truly attract? Well, sure, but I think it's deeper than that. Certainly we can seem almost ridiculously opposed in our likes and dislikes, but when it comes to core values and feelings, we are quite similar. Such as, we always put the other before anyone or anything else in our lives. There is no question between us that we are in this together. And, in being quite different from one another in some ways, we bring out the best in one another. For example, I've always been very independent, to the point of being reserved and aloof. My husband brought out in me utter trust that makes me feel so safe with him I let my guard down. And, as far as my husband goes, he was never really motivated before. But, wanting the best for the both of us in life, he generates that motivation in himself to improve. Realizing this makes me feel so much better about our superficial differences. Clearly, no relationship is perfect. But, my mother always said, you're not perfect, but you're perfect for one another. So, I think I can handle the music, and the Xbox. Cause I feel like the best person I can be when I'm with him.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
So, as most of you probably know, I'm pretty addicted to shopping. I know, cliche. I'm always on the lookout for the next item that I just can't live without. During my recent search, I inadvertently purchased said item and truly cannot live without it. It is my black vest. Seriously, it goes with EVERYTHING!
I can put on jeans and a tee and by throwing the vest over it, it instantly becomes a look. Or, when I'm feeling, shall we say, boring, I'll throw it over a dress and heels, and almost get a hippie feel to it. I probably wear it too much, people are going to think I don't own anything else. But it is officially and absolutely the key piece that I cannot live with out!
Friday, August 8, 2008
Oh, how I love this show! And how sad I am that the season is over. It was an amazing episode, and I was thrilled with who won. But, that being said, did anyone else see the dance with past competitors? Lauren was wearing the cutest outfit with these great leg warmers. Maybe I'm the only one, but I'm seriously considering taking up dance just so I can get away with wearing leg warmers. I love them so much! I'd wear them, but I'm not sure if I could pull them off... Oh well, now only three weeks till ANTM!